wow! I have a blog again! It's been years!! I hope I will find the time to speak my mind... I have a lot to say and I need an outlet... So here I go... trying to live life out loud...
Much of my life I have lived in silence...although the silence was intended to protect me, it ended up causing me pain...and although I have become more social, fun-loving, and spontaneous...there always remained a deeper part of me hidden inside... I learned how to play the part of the friendly and entertaining, hostess with the mostest very well...yet there was always a true me buried deep in a remote part of my being...
I have slowly started to expose this inner me...and the more I unmask, the more I realize that this masquerade has been in vain...because I am a genuine, wholehearted, amorous person...who wants nothing more than to bring joy to the people around me...and that is nothing to be ashamed of...
My reasons for keeping myself so private and secret are not because of shame, at all...being sensitive to the opinions of others, and with a fear of being seen as having weaknesses, it was really just to protect myself from vulnerability...I love people...and I want to help people...my heart is too big to be hiding...it wants to come out...and be worn on my sleeve...
I love me...and I want people to know me...so this is me...exposed...and consciously making an effort to live out loud...
Happy New Year!
It's cool. There is risk in being vulnerable, but also freedom when you do.
ReplyDeleteFunny. We both began our new blog in Oh-nine.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to read your words, they inspire me. Always so positive... always so YOU!
I <3 You. Near or far.