Saturday, April 23, 2011

hoping for the best

wow.

it has been way too long...

i am saddened because i feel i have lost so much... i feel like i gained so much in writing... and i haven't done it in months...

what is going on? where is all the emotion? where is all the feeling? where is the love?

i usually write with feelings of agave... with unconditional love for all of existence...

maybe the writing is what gave me this sensation?

before i asked, i had feelings of disappointment... not just in me... but in the whole world...

but now as i write... i am almost forced to be positive...

i have always said that i plan on living past 100 years... that plan of mine has been threatened because my mind has allowed itself to be persuaded to live in fear... in fear that the earth may shake and cause more geographical changes... in fear that the dollar may die and the country collapse... in fear that the food i've been eating could be shortening my expected life span...

but i don't want to live in fear... i want to live in peace...

there are things i cannot control... but there are also things i can...

for everything else... just gotta be prepared...